I love being me, because I firmly believe I enjoy TOS more than the average TOS-fan. The reason why is because I expend no effort whatsoever to keep myself from seeing and understanding what is there. All my energy goes into simply enjoying what is there. I, unlike most TOS-fans, can fully appreciate what a truly groundbreaking, revolutionary, ~sky-ripping~ show it really was, and what a truly deep and moving story of romantic adventure it really tells.
I love being me, because to me a hero is no less a hero if he's bisexual or Gay. My husband is bisexual, and he's also my hero. He's all man, and he's a wonderful husband. He's my best friend, the father of my children, my hot love-slave...he's my everything, and we make a great team. It's just so perfect that he thinks as highly of me as I do of him. BTW, I'm bisexual too, and he knows it. He doesn't think any less of me because of this, in fact, it's one of the things he likes about me. We include the occasional third person in our marriage. These playmates come and go, while we are still always there for each other. See how that works?
I love being me, because the idea that Kirk and Spock might be lovers is one of the more wonderful things I can imagine. Not because being Gay is in itself so special, but because their relationship is so special. A more perfect picture of true devotion is hard to find. I don't know about you guys, but I personally find them to be inspiring.
That they are two men is NOT beside the point. It's because they are two men that people often refuse to see it for what it is. If those two characters were a man and a woman, nobody would hesitate to recognize that their relationship must be complete, that is, that it must also be an erotic relationship. Obviously not monogamous, but ~damn near~.
I love being me, because I'm a K/Ser, and K/Sers have the luxury of saying:
"Of course neither Kirk nor Spock ever had a heterosexual relationship that went anywhere. They found each other!"
"Of course neither Kirk nor Spock ever married a woman: they are already married to each other!"
"Of course Kirk was expecting that to be Spock in back giving him the back rub at the beginning of _Shore Leave_: they are lovers!"
"Of course Spock and Kirk look deeply into one another's eyes while Spock says 'I am always yours' in _Wrath of Khan_: they are lovers!"
"Of course Kirk and Spock do incredible things for each other's sakes, far beyond what duty and the demands of common friendship demand: They're married!"
"Of course their relationship is the primary relationship for both of them. Of course it spans decades, withstands incredible trials, and defies even death: they are in love!"
Kirk and Spock love each other, and it's a fierce, whole-souled, unconditional love. They are always there for each other. They go to extraordinary lengths for each other's sakes, and then shrug it off like it's no big deal. I have never seen one turn to the other and say: "Thanks, I owe you one." Nobody's keeping score. There's no quota, and there are no limits. It goes without saying that they both will give the other their best, their all, or any portion thereof, whenever needed, and also just for the fun of it. They have fun together. They enjoy each other, they appreciate each other, they are each other's favorite person in the whole universe.
It's just too bad that we so rarely see *heterosexual* pairs on TV that demonstrate this degree of dedication, of loyalty, of (call it what it is, folks) true love. But I'm certainly glad we've at least got these two guys.
Relationships like that are rare, but they do exist, and it's really nice to see one on TV. I just wish there were more of them, on TV, and in life. What's special about my marriage to my husband is we go together like Kirk and Spock, and man, thanks to him, I am SO GLAD I'm me.
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